Real or Not Real?

What is real?

Im not sure how i feek about this question anymore. I used to know. Now, not so much. I think it is because i used to be more sure of who am i and where im going. Now… not so much.

In Mockingjay there is a section of the book where Peeta must learn the difference between fact and fiction. He and Katniss develop a game. He says a statement and she tells him whether what he remembers is fact or fiction. Real or not real.

In the book, i liked the game. In the book, it is the perfect game. In life…reality….it doesn’t work.

I feel like Peeta sometimes. Asking those around me “Real or not real?”

Im 25 years old? Real or not real?
I always wanted to work for a magazine. Real or not real?
My parents taught me right from wrong? Real or not real?
I don’t care for children. Real or not real?
God has a plan for me. Real or not real?
I’m following it. Real or not real?
People can change. Real or not real?
I’m not defined by my circumstances. Real or not real?
My choices are my own. Real or not real?
Pain is weakness leaving the body. Real or not real?
I can make a difference. Real or not real
This list could go on and on…

People answer as best they can, but how can they answer that question for me.

Recently i had a conversation with someone very dear to me about her newfound desire for truth. After living, for lack of a better term, a lie for decades, she is desperately and hungrily seeking truth.

Even though our lives have been very different, i cannot help but marvel at how different circumstances have led us to ask the same questions, but for different reasons. My reasons are legit. Real or not real?

What is real? What is not real? I desperately wish i knew, but i’m scared to find out.

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  1. * Jeyna Grace says:

    It is real when you make it real… simply put.

    | Reply Posted 5 years, 11 months ago
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    | Reply Posted 5 years, 8 months ago

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